duchess of fade

This entry's going to be schizod and abrupt. You have been warned. Don't bother trying to understand it.

Point1: The way I react to anger has been a little extreme in its changes over the years. From screaming and arguing, it got to just looking at the person [which kind of infuriated them more since they cldn't argue with someone who just looks.] The after-effects was always a cold war... I have quite a bit of a temper actually. And it's changing again... Girl, I know you're upset at me. I don't know what I did, and it's just awkward to pretend nothing's wrong. I'm not good at pretending what I don't feel...

Point2: I don't understand how they can be so... stupid. I wld really like to rant here, but that wouldn't be good. Hah.

Point3: I was studying econs last night in my brother's room, and the next thing I knew, I was sprawled face down on the ground sleeping. haha. When I recovered sufficiently to stagger to my own room, I found that my bed was Covered with worksheets and files. Guess what? I pulled the blanket off and went to sleep on the floor again. -sheepish-

Point4: I don't really have much left to write, just thought that since I'm online I may as well make the most of it. haha. Promos start this friday, and end the next. I can't wait! I mean, it isn't as though I'm the most well prepared person in the world or anything, but I'm tired of it and the way I see it is, the sooner it comes, the sooner it goes. yay. And inter-house games are the monday after that! So fun!! ((: Life will be gooooooood after promos.

Unless I don't get the grades I'm working for.

But I will, won't I?

I don't know.

sleepy history

I was supposed to find out what happened on the day of my birth... well on Jan30 2oo3 A hospital ward for kids was build I think... smth like that. hah. Not bad right? But that isn't 1987.

Exams are in a week's time... and YF attendence is dipping. I think that's sad. I mean. Daryl was telling me how it used to be that no one ever thought of skipping YF. As in, it just never crossed anyone's mind. Well that's changed now. I think it's the education system. I mean, look. I'm planning to stay up till 3 tonight just because I'm so incrdibly behind syllabus. I'm scared, but at the same time I think it's wrong. Just bcz I want to do well shouldn't result in such madness. But I see no other way.

[on a sidenote, I think the picasa thing [did i get that right?] is stupid. Regret downloading it.]

Anyway, I really enjoyed ZJS today. Every month I kind of dread it bcz the kids are so irritating but aunty Chun Hong taught Rev19-20 and I think it was great. She really helped. (:

God's really obviously present; I don't get why anyone can say He doesn't. "Just as a watch proves the existance of a watch maker, so the earth proves the existance of the earth creator." There is no other way.

Well. It's off to the desk for me again; econs beckons.

Goodnight.

me (: