there are some things i could wish to be settled before the passing of the year, only i don't know if i should or how. sometimes things blare before your face and you can't deny how ugly you are. nope.

issues on my hands, surely they ought to be more than just grey slather hanging between my fingers. but such take time, and understanding.


with the new year comes- so much. i have no resource to envisage a year with asd, news which swept me off my feet but i ought to rise and meet come what may with equanimity. and what of the past? along along with conversations unexpected and information unanticipated. bigger picture, maybe, my God sure does tie me up in knots. hii, am i Your origami?
just, i would love reconciliation, but You know best and i wait on Your timing. You know our hearts, and what we can take. christmas wish Your way.

perhaps we're all just singing along to the same old broken song
come save us from ourselves