i can't make paragraphs =Pp

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit. Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.

Galatians 5:22-26

"Each is a different aspect of Christlikeness. In the Gospels, we see how Christ exemplified these virtues. Now He wants to produce them in our hearts—in what we say, how we think, and how we respond to life (John 15:1-4)".

if i had these characteristics in me... you know what? i want them.

which, conversely also means that my flesh has to die. crucified, at that.

sigh. it would hurt like... the whole past year, and then some, i'm guessing. which is kind of unnverving. oh but look what i pasted on gayle's blog yesterday:

Whenever God takes us through the land of affliction, He will do two things through that affliction:

1) He will bring such healing that we will be able to forget the pain, and

2) He will make us fruitful from the painful experiences.

there's always hope for us who believe in Christ. Always. with reality as it is, you can't ask for more than that. a hope that stands the test of time, that is proven, that is independent of circumstance.

i think i'm... a really mishapen person. i have like all these issues and pasts and falsities and downright arrogance, which makes me think of a doll-like figure that has layers and layers of steamed dough draped around it, unevenly; i'm a michelin doll gone horrifically wrong.

so. after all that reflection. i reiterate: i want to be fruit. i want to be loving, joyful, in peace, longsuffering, gentle, good, faithful, meek, temperant.

(okay everyone get ready to see the posts for the next year, HAH)