saturday, 26/09

i realised something today: i overthink. and it's an excess that doesn't just go to the point of unnecessity, but unhealthy. well it can, anyway, and often does. so this evening i was working on a concious stopping of this habit. see, if the hurt comes, it comes and when it comes is when to start to feel. to do so before, to preempt or predict the situation is to borrow the pain and it's the borrowing that makes it wrong. for as long as it is still on its way, it doesn't exist in anywhere but my mind and so to imagine the outcome into emotional reality is mere melodrama, it is unfair and immature and shallow, i don't want this anymore.