never before has a week so dragged

1.
"One reason for not receiving answers from God is that sin may be blocking our hearing. Let’s examine ourselves carefully."

is sin blocking my hearing? i really wouldn't want that. i've been trying. i think.
it seems like everything's been put on fast-forward, even one montish, that crazy but kinda nice phrase, when i blinked it became two. fast-forwarding is ultimately no good, i think. things get lost in the blur.

sometimes sanctification and other theological words seem so separate from the daily reality of my life. like, sanctification seems all that is serious (though good), a little solemn, a little stern. daily life is.. a struggle, a happiness, a swirl of colours and blend over and over again. them theological words are unyielding like the walls of a gothic church. gray, and unrelenting.
but if sanctification is Christ in me, then... He becomes part of what i called daily life, no? and the two ideas have to come together. whether integrated, melded, or clashed into unity, (hopefully not), i don't know. but sanctification must be as part of my colour playing as anything else is. and my actions now, though really, quite detachedly interesting in how it's all dramatic and purposeful, must deliberately include sanctification. i mean, the process and our decisions are undoubtedly good for scantification, but if i am not conscious of the work that is going on, i would think i'm losing out. here, then. alright. what we're going through, is sanctification. and. it's not boring. sanctification is not boring. it's as colourful as anything i've got in my own palette, and then some. awesome, interesting, and all that. i like this conclusion. till the next time.

2.
from lotsofscotts:

Don't try to 'fix' each other--let God do that. Instead, look for ways to
love one another well.
Seek God's guidance on how to glorify Him through your marriage. What a
nonstop opportunity it is to practice selflessness, grace, forgiveness and
unconditional love!

as is currently relevant.
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3. oh, i might as well announce. tiang is leaving me. as has everyone else. a.b.a.n.d.o.n.e.d.