where i try to sound intellectual.

restless. restless.

rachel would like to be:

1. more intellectual. as in, making use of it, i suppose, since i already have it it's just hidden underneath and i don't care to bring it out all that often. unless there's like some idiot (usually guy) in class trying to pose all brilliant and insightful and... generally coming off SMARMY. caterpillar goo and mashed up fat caterpillar legs for brain stuffing. then yeah, i bother using my smarts. but then again not really, i usually content myself with many mutterings in my (hidden) intellectual brain. like how i called said idiot caterpillar goo mashed up fat brain. well anyway i do like intelligence, you know, girls who use it turn me on. HAHAHHAHAA.

2. provocative. the last above sentence was for my best friend, who very firmly believes that homosexuality is Not For Rachel. but no, really, it's true. i guess i haven't seen many intelligent guys (or blogs i suppose since that's where i get my ideas from: smart girl = writes smart/about smart stuff like her essays and ideas and stuff like that); the smart ones are girls. so i have no choice but to admire it in girls right? okay okay. i shall narrow my definition. i like people who genuinely enjoy intellect/using it, and it shows in their conversation and personal writings. do i make sense? okay la evidently i'm not smart after all. rachel should just face her bimbotic self because that's the real her right. YOU KNOW I'M QUOTING FROM YOU. because i get this quite a lot. okay my point's been totally lost ggxx ttm. (epic) PHAIL.

can you stop trying to sound like some sixteen year old pls kthnxbye.