on a jet plane

finally used that line (:

go to my other place k? doingthekiwi.wordpress.com. don't know if i'll write much, but yeah. there.
won't close this one though- it makes for good top secret friends only posts. which might not happen, but still.

so long,
fare well.

why i leave

so that all the relationships i've messed up over, can lie fallow, like fields that have been plouged too often now warped and needing rest.

fine, i honestly see (much better) now. boys and boys and girls are girls, and i cannot treat them the same. boys will not let me treat them the same. they will wonder, they will think different.

things cannot go on the way they were before. the land is changed with peace and stillness, i can be too. as will the relationships that have been sown messily, grown terribly and reaped unahppily.

i'm sorry for those i messed up, because i thought we could be open, and close, and good. i didn't believe that being a boy and being a girl would make any difference. strike one, rachel.

okay. vulnerable moment over. rachel will come back and remember that boys are different, and cannot be girlfriends.

-5.7???

It cannot be possible! How can it be so cold in Wellington?? It's the CAPTIAL for goodness sakes don't global warming and urban cities count for something. I DON'T HAVE THE CLOTHES YOU DUMB WEATHERMAN I ONLY HAVE CLOSE TO THIRTY (PRETTY) DRESSES.

hello geographer I am not going to ANTARTICA! Can someone tell them map makers please that they got it wrong, they need to send them negative temperature values back to the south pole, that the ice caps need to stay frozen thankyouverymuch.

I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH CLOTHES TO LOOK GOOD I DON'T WANT TO LOOK LIKE A BA ZHANG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okay i just argued with my brother over something so insignificantly stupid i am tired goodbye i leave in four days.

Propinquity

Propinquity :"In social psychology, propinquity (from Latin propinquitas, nearness) is one of the main factors leading to interpersonal attraction. It refers to the physical or psychological proximity between people. Two people living on the same floor of a building, for example, have a higher propinquity than those living on different floors. Propinquity can mean physical proximity, a kinship between people, or a similarity in nature between things."

"The propinquity effect is the tendency for people to form friendships or romantic relationships with those whom they encounter often. In other words, relationships tend to be formed between those who have a high propinquity."

From Wayne's blog

Okay my indentation's gone weird. I'll live with it. (: uermmmm. I've been wanting to talk about it. Been thinking of his post, and how strongly I agree with it. al agreed with me when I told her about it. I think we both don't believe in the romantic fluff of true love, or of some dude/tte living in south africa pining for you and whom neither will be complete till they meet while one is walking in/out of the airpoirt toilet etc. What I found more interesting then, was the extrapolated implication then that the current boyfriend I am with (who has yet to exist), would have been as likely to have been someone else, if I only I had been working/studying/living somewhere else. And that's why people have affairs, don't they. (wandering off a tangent here. since it doesn't seem quite relevant.) Because they interact with someone on a longer time span and therefore gain a higher propinquity with that person than they currently do with their spouse/lover. So... when people sprout phrases about how i-love-him-more-than-i-love-you-and-i-believe-in-love-so-i-will-follow-him, what they are really saying is, that they have a higher propinquity with the other scum thing. (you know I cherish a certain nonsensical and terribly prejudiced notion that all men are scum.) And the ultimate conclusion is that love is a choice, isn't it. I could marry/get attached to some/any dude who fits the general terms and conditions, and the rest of it is to choose to honour and love him.

No wonder pearlyn's mantra chants along the lines of Boys are Bad. heh.

Other notes-

1. I'm going to cut bangs tomorrow! I've seen a preview, cz al showed me how to fold my hair just so and I look weird but there is simply no other time and I would like a change.

2. Eyebrow, or lambret piercing? I have yet to decide.

3. I wrote a bit more. (:

okay la, I'm just laladwaddlingmmming around now. Because there's Love, love and love. smile for me.