i just woke up

Let's go for the mundane report, shall we?

mmm.. I cut my hair on sunday because I was convinced I was balding and that if I didn't take drastic action I Would bald. hmm hmmm anyway he cut it really so much shorter than I thought he would. sigh that's like a year's painstaking growth gone. byebye hair.

and I'm still dropping a lot of hair, the same amount, which is crazy considering how my hair has gone from mid-back to shoulder length. I can idly scratch once and maybe 5 strands come out entangled in my hand. So simply flick my hair with the hands.. more comes out.

But I guess wigs are quite realistic these days so I'm not fretting too much at the real possiblity of growing bald. Amazing how God gives us the grace for what we would have previously thought of as devastating events. I once read in Chicken Soup for the [teenage] Soul about this pretty, popular who had this rare genetic disease and lost all her hair. After I read it, I put myself in her shoes and I was like, crap, I wouldn't ever be able to do it. Now my hair's dropping so much that my hairline's widening visibly but I'm still pretty okay. Might visit the specialist in a week's time if the drastic haircut doesn't do the job.
My only gripe is that I would have then cut the long long hair for nothing. [utters a mild curse.]

Or maybe I'm superficial, cz I'm upset mostly bcz I'm supposed to go for a poolside party in a couple of weeks, beachwear and all. Shoulder length hair to a party?? mann that's so.. sad. and I'm going to be that sad creature. arrgh. Plus I don't seem to be able to drop the waist fat so all in all, I guess the only thing I have left is to just smile and hide the waist under a pretty sarong wrap. Really confounded with the hair though.

hmmm hmm. balding, fat, and stupid [haven't the time to update abt school itself but it's pretty bad]. oh dear.