QT for the day (:

I’ve learnt a couple of lessons from the phone incident. First and foremost, thanks again to my bunch of friends from all sorts of places who were there for me. jotee, al, hannah and wilson were some. (: Yes, I am a lot better, aided in part by listening ears, alternate viewpoints and the old ol’hug. (: You guys teach me a lot about friendship.

I was berating myself again in bed last night and talking to God. I kind of asked him to make my daddy happy and all when suddenly, this thought flashed through my mind. I think, in a way, it was You replying.

If, spoiling a phone by accident evokes such a big reaction in you Because it made your daddy unhappy, how much more do you think I grieve then, when you wilfully disobey Me? And why do I not get a similar flood of tears?

That thought floored me. I think maybe, it’s worth the phone if it brought the lesson home. Indeed. Each time I do something wrong in God’s sight, and He is upset, where are my tears of repentance?

You know. I didn’t even need confirmation that daddy was upset. Just the thought that daddy was upset because of something I had done was enough to make me cry in the car, the food court [such a public place], the bus and on the phone. sigh. But thinking over it, if I were to feel so each time I rebel against God, I’d be perpetually in tears. =Pp

Thank God then, that I know all my wrongs are forgiven and that there is no need for tears. Nope. No need. I can go on in life and each time I disobey You, I know Your arms are open wide if only I accept. It’s rather hard to understand that You love me so but what am I to do? There isn’t anything that I can offer anyway. Nada.

Just You You You. Such amazing love.-