"yea; better to be completely honest and real, than to insist on the appearance of happiness, just for the sake of the end"

still learning the notes of redemption's song :]

i would like

- a holiday; it's been a long 7 months, work-wise.

- to go somewhere and see some beauty, breathe fresh air and remember that disorder and mismanagement are not the only things left in the world; that there is laughter and life and some sunshine still.

- some real solid food; cf hebrews 5.

[pause]

- to have recorded the conversation held in mandarin; 我们要必须进步, and all that.


- after-conversation pleasantness to last; all the way, through rough days, the nicest kind of perfume trailing drowsily, luxuriously. 

one of those days worth remembering

because we talked it through. we each came to the table struggling and in bad shape, but we opened our mouths and spoke our hearts.

because difficult issues were brought up and faced squarely, even if bringing them up was costly. and it means a lot to me that they were even brought up, and all the more so precisely because of their cost. that's in the first place. on top of this, is that we faced them- and we didn't break. 

another momentous day, another lesson in communication. several points i count as gems, because of the courage and partnership called for. 

it could have gone so wrong; it did begin so hurtfully. but now we end the day with minds clearer, and, bond stronger. it is one of those days worth remembering.