still thinking

some general remarks

1) this website has changed its layout. i must register a measure of protest at the reinvention of the wheel.

2) tickets for chiang mai booked; i wonder what kind of relationship we'll have when we return. i presently categorise under pessimistic, but then i do think i have reason to be. unpleasantness just gets tiring after years, you know? i'd like to think that i'm loved somewhere, but every memory of recent interaction puts that to rest. i can't remember the last time we laughed together, or gave something better than politeness. this isn't the way it should be.

3) won't you please choose life? please choose life.

4) it's been a heavy heart within, thinking thoughts.