Wednesday, December 17, 2008

i swear

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write down the phrase you hear
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Here I am send me.
(wtc)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
When I fell to the dust

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Open my eyes open my eyes open my eyes
(HAHAHA)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Search me
(enigma ttm!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Here I am

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Majesty
(hehehe)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Forgiven so that I can forgive

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Knowing that I'm Your desire

WHAT IS 2+2?
Scantified by glory and fire

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Since You laid down Your life

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The greatest sacrifice

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Hosanna in the highest

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
I see a generation
(feeling quite grandmotherly here)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I see a near revival
(HAHHAA)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
We're on our knees
(I'm not that bad a daughter! honestly!)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Eternity

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Take- take- take it all! Take- take- take it all!
(haha i don't suppose anyone wants my remains as a souvenier)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Everlasting
(i guess you could say that... let's hear it for His kingdom (: )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
To love you from the inside out (:

WHAT´S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
You're altogether lovely
(I sense a jealous streak here..)


WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross.
(ouch. but imagine, if i did know, how much my life would be transformed)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Oh I could be the man who grows old with you
(wah lao i sound like some disgruntled bitter spinster)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
The one that you love
(what the crap??)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Making love out of nothing at all
(??)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Making love out of nothing at all
(I have a repeat song here. but still.)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Lonely
(HAHAHAHAHHA)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
If I ain't got you
(sigh)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
I swear
(those words bring back too many gray, sad memories. if promises believed on, then forgotten by the promiser)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
I swear
(another repeat!)

Sunday, December 07, 2008

off for camp.

such a different feeling from the previous years. i stumbled across a post; i think it's quite fitting. the voice from that time is calm and assured, secure in her knowledge that there is worth even in unsteady- and uneasiness, and it's the way these are lived, that counts.

i will remember grace, and strive to live a life that is bigger than i am.

because it seems an energy saving practice.

Today at 3:35pm
hullooo. i have a couple of hours before i have to start packing, so i thought i'd reply to you. it's a lazy sunday afternoon, and i am basically resting.

i'm kind of feeling too old for camps now, freelance or church camp or whatever. this one's church youth camp by the way.. there'll be overnight walks and stuff; i'm like, telling everyone that i'm too old for it. =Pp innotrek (the company i freelance at) has a camp during the first week of january for five days.. it'll be $300ish to earn, but i'm like, FIVE days of outdoor life. of.. having to match their energy level AND beat that, of talking and talking and talking, to entertain them, teach them... sleep late, wake up early, do chores and duties, andddddddd worse of all, deal with company politics. that's by far the worst. i hate politics. i don' really want to go, but the money will be useful in covering my mountain trip. did you know? i'll be climbing mt kinabalu in the 2nd week of january. go check out mt kinabalu on the map or sth hurrr. the cost will go up to $500 i think. so, yeah. =/

your hair looks like a st bernard.

i haven't really taken anything out from my luggage.. yuppppp, i haven't unpacked. sigh. i've been clearing out my clothes though. well i gave away like maybe 15% of my clothes but ermmm my mom got me heaps more while i was away SO there's effectively barely any difference. oh man. so terrible. i feel so ineffectual =((
so anyway no, i haven't touched the paua nor seen it- but i do think of that bag, and esp how they look like. thanks so much for lacquering and drilling holes into them. when i get down to settling my life's goods once more, i will examine them and i have no doubt i will be touched. i already am. (:

and are BOTH the twins going to hk! that is so uncool (from my point of view). okay fine i'll confess that if they don't come to singapore i don't really care where they go (as long as it's close to singapore. but then they might as well come to singapore then arghhh). you know what i mean right.

haha yay thanks for being proud of me. that's like, a super thing to say.

and i wouldn't know how to react if the twins saw you as their sister.
they are suchhhh lauyapoks at keeping in touch. i've given up on them.

erm i'm going to msia once for a family trip, and second time with a couple of mates. i don't know why, it's not like we always to over the causeway or sth but i just came back i'm entitled to do that. hah.

sigh. i'm super tired. i have been since i came back. i'm going to shower and nap, and then pack for camp. everything's so draining.. i seem to have lost all my energy.

Thursday, December 04, 2008

is it always with a sense of betrayal?

my parents are so delighted, so gloriously happy, and i am unable to reciprocrate.

i feel like a traitor, for missing the mountains.